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oh yeah and...

2005-09-28T17:52:32Z

New LJ.

www.livejournal.com/users/dinoslikedisco

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just so everyone's aware and i don't have to say this a million times.

2005-09-28T17:47:23Z

yes we're back together.
yes i know what could happen.
yes if something bad happens i'll be crushed.
but it's a chance i'm willing to take,
it's a thing i need to do.

i trust him,
i believe him,
i love him,
and we're going to be ok.

i appreciate concerns,
i know you're looking out for me,
but i'm taking some advice,
i'm following my heart,

and if it leads me to the bottom of a lake,
i'll only have myself to blame...

atrocious verocious.

2005-07-29T06:24:31Z

so pretty much.
amanda and i have another green child.

aside from burt the bean stuffed turtle.

we now have the neo-pet toy named...

you guessed it.

Atrocious Verocious.

it's pretty sweet,
we know...

You taste like self destruction...

2005-07-25T07:53:48Z

BODY ILLS + SKILLS-
Do you bite your nails: sometimes...
Can you roll your tongue: yes
Can you blow smoke rings: no
Can you blow spit bubbles: no
Can you cross your eyes: yes
Tattoos and where: none
Do you make your bed daily: no
What's sexiest on a guy: uhm. eyes? hands?
What's sexiest on a girl: ...
Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it: depends.
what utensils do you use eating pizza: hands or a form and knife, depends on the pizza...

-GROOMING-
How often do you brush your teeth: usually twice a day.
Do you shower/bathe: both.
How long do these showers last: awhile
Hair drying method: blow-dry
What color is your bedroom: white
Do you use an alarm clock: cellular device
What's your sleeping position: different all the time.
What kind of bed do you like: a comfortable one.
In hot weather do you use a blanket: yes.
Do you sleepwalk: no
Do you talk in your sleep: sometimes
How about the light on: i have
Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio: differs.

-WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU-
Had sex: uhm. no comment.
Watched Bambi: when i was a kid
Cried: very recently.
Talked on the phone: not too long ago.
Read a book: the other day.

-MUSIC-
Is music important to you: yes. quite.
Do you sing: horribly.
What instruments do you play: none.
What do you think of Eminem: uhm.
In your opinion what band is the best of all time: *shrug*

-DO YOU LIKE-
Pop music: uhm well, does waking ashland count?
Punk music: some
Rap music: some
Hip-hop/RB: some
Country: not particularly.
Jazz: yes.
Classical: eh
New age: no
Hardcore: yes
Indie rock: yes
Emo: yes

-WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX-
What do you notice first?: body type
Do you have a crush on anyone?: yes
Who is the easiest to talk to?: jordan.

-DO YOU/ARE YOU-
Could you live without the computer?: i'm sure i'd get by.
What's your favorite fruit?: pomegranite
What hurts the most? Physical or emotional pain?: emotional.

-NUMBER-
Of times you have had your heart broken?: several, by the same person.
Of hearts you have broken?: probably none.
Of girls kissed?: none
Of boys kissed?: i can count them on one hand...
Who? ...
Of drugs taken illegally?: 1.
Of close friends?: a couple.
Who?: don't feel like listing. i'll just say my firefly for now
Of CD's owned: a lot
Of scars on my body?: i don't know.

-OTHER THINGS-
I know: i should stop
I want: to not be freaking out
I have: a headache
I wish: i knew what was happening
I hate: not knowing what the hell's going on.
I miss: that feeling.
I fear: that the thought in the back of my head is true
I hear: me typing
I love: ...
I ache: my heart aches.
I care: about him.
I always: screw up
I dance: for fun
I cry: too much
I can usually be found: in my house.

-ARE YOU A...-
Wuss: at times
Druggie: no
Daydreamer: yes
Alcoholic: no
Freak: no
Brat: no
Sarcastic: yes
Goody-goody: no
Angel: no
Devil: no
Friend: yes
Shy: sometimes
Adventurous: not really
Intelligent: i'd like to think so...

-SELF ANALYSIS YOU PROBABLY DON'T WANT TO DO-
Your best feature [personality]: generous.
Most annoying thing you do: be jealous.
Biggest mistake you've made this far: screwing things up.
Describe your personality in one word: ok.
A smell that makes you smile: uhm cookies.
A city you'd like to visit: madrid
A drink you order most often: dr.pepper
The music you prefer while alone: uhm the honorary title.
A TV show you watch regularly: uhm... laguna beach, or the OC

blank.

2005-07-22T00:20:11Z

i wrote this long entry pouring my heart out.
and all of a sudden it dissappeared.

the page was blank.

my heart feels like someone beat the crap out of it,
it has not the energy to beat,
and it aches.

this is my life without love.

i suppose i should get used to it...

interesting...

2005-07-19T10:43:42Z

it's like he's inside of my head, lol. well it's cool that he wrote about all of this stuff anyways...
but don't worry i'm not fishing for pity...
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"No One Really Wins"

Welcome love, I have made a place for you here
I know every word they say.
I know how they want to make you change.

Change if you want, but don't you go and change for me
I can love you as you are
I didn't mean to make you want to leave

It's a fight between my heart and mind,
No one really wins this time
No one really wins this time

If you don't find the love you want,
if I have acted ungracefully
I don't want to see you go
I never meant to make you want to leave

But go if you want.
Make your way straight to the door.
I hope that you look back before you go
'cause grace looks back before it starts to leave

It's a fight between my heart and mind,
No one really wins this time
No one really wins this time
In the endless fight of grace and pride
I don't want to win this time
I don't want to win this time

Change if you want, but don't you go and change for me
I will love you as you are
I didn't mean to make you want to leave

It's a fight between my heart and mind
No one really wins this time
No one really wins this time
In the endless fight of grace and pride
I don't want to win this time
I don't want to win this time
In the endless fight of grace and pride
I don't want to win this time
I don't want to win this time
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"Choose The One Who Loves You More"

Rain, rain, rain on my mind
I've got a secret life
Wipe, wipe, wipe it away
Nothing can make me dry

Fight all the while
Fight 'til I think I'm free
Feel rains we never see
Beautiful secret lives

It can make you face all your fears
It can make you face all your fears

Oh, smile, smile in a day
Fear takes its place at night
Oh, oh, I'm pretty in the rain
I love your secret life

It can make you face all your fears
It can make you face all your fears.

I could leave you well enough alone
Believe and you'll be overcome and gone
By grace away
Better off than if I stayed
I could leave you well enough alone
Believe and you'll be overcome and gone
By grace away
Better off than if I stayed

I could leave you walk away
We'll save it for another day
Through all the wars I've come to know
Its punch is pulled, and our time was grown in

When they come knocking on your heart's door
Choose the one who loves you more
And when you've found something to die for
(Make you face all your fears)
They'll be knocking on your heart's door
(Make you face all your fears)
When they come knocking on your heart's door
(Make you face all your fears)
Choose the one who loves you more
(Make you face all your fears)
And when you've found something to die for
(Make you face all your fears)
They'll be knocking on your heart's door
(Make you face all your fears)
When they come knocking on your heart's door
(Make you face all your fears)
Choose the one who loves you more
(Make you)

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"Pin Your Wings Down"
Hey Amanda
Where'd you find these crazy boys this time?
They say you're pretty but you don't think they're right.

Hey Amanda
While you're staring at your telephone tonight
do you feel like turning it off, turning off all of the lights?

Pin your wings down
if it's over now
Pin your wings down
just take a chance somehow

Hey Amanda
who just threw your heart away this time?
And when you're crying on your bed does he help keep you alive?

Pin your wings down
if it's all over now
Pin your wings down
just take a chance somehow

I'll take the blame if you take me home now
Cuz there's no place left for trust in all this pain
And you know when it rains in this town I get washed away
Without a sound
So pin my wings down

If it's over
If it's over now

Pin your wings down
if it's over now
Pin your wings down
just take a chance somehow
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"Sleep"

Am I sleeping with my eyes wide
Am I alone?
Am I staring into bright lights
Have I gone home?
I must be dreaming when I'm sitting here
On someone else's throne
Am I sleeping with my eyes wide
Won't you let me know?

Will I wake to find you waiting by my bedside?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my side?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my bedside?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my side?

Am I sleeping with my eyes wide
Am I alone?
Am I following the lines on faces never shone?
I want to see your hairline, your cheekbones
Your red lips on your cell phone
Won't you let me know?

Will I wake to find you waiting by my bedside?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my side?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my bedside?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my side?

Will I wake to find you waiting by my bedside?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my side?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my bedside?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my side?

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"Hold Nothing Back"

Do what you want but I know who you are
Say what you want but I know what you're thinking
Go where you want but I won't be too far
Go where want and I know where you'll end up

If you fall in love
Fall in love and hold nothing back
I'll fall in love
Fall in love and hold nothing back from you, oh
You oh
You oh
You

Do what you want but I know who you are
Say what you want but I know what you're thinking
If you fall in love
Fall in love and hold nothing back
I'll fall in love
Fall in love and hold nothing back from you, oh
You oh
You oh
You

hmm...

2005-07-07T18:22:05Z

i'm trying to seem like nothing has fazed me.
i'm trying to seem like i don't care.

because that's what you're showing.
i hope this makes you happy,
because then at least i'll be able to see some good out of this.

you're going to find someone better than me...

and i won't be able to do anything about it...

la di da.

2005-07-06T22:05:55Z

hm...

it's been quite sometime.
and yet,
i have nothing to say...

i miss some things,
but am ever so glad i got rid of most that i did.

i hope that everyone is doing well.

considering i deleted myspace,
i feel slightly detached.

however,
i'm hoping this will change.

here is a list of things i must do...
find a job.
get a basket for my bicycle.
become content.
save money.

these shall be done soon.
you can count on that...

~~4 months July 12th.~~
honorary title show July 16th.

tight.

♥

SWEET.

2005-05-25T23:01:09Z

Stained bed sheets,
Ripped shirts,
Bruised collarbones,
We’re such subtle flirts.

Keep walkin’ darlin’,
Like there’s nothing for you here,
Keep talkin’ baby,
While I cover my ears.

Scents mingling,
Makeup smeared,
Music sounding,
There’s no more fear.

Do what you want with me lovely,
I’ll do anything you need,
Make everything better sweetheart,
And then get the hell out of here.

Things i have learned in the past week...

2005-05-19T15:00:51Z

People are Immature and very much to the point where it's ridiculous, just because you don't get what you want does not mean you need to ruin something for another person...please kids grow the fuck up

The Educational System is Effedthat whole bomb threat, business was in fact nothing, however what was the school's main concern? You guessed it. Money. They didn't care that students didn't feel safe at school, they cared that they lossed money when the students didn't go to their classes.

Procrastination is LameWhat do i really get out of waiting until the last minute? I have some fun when i'm supposed to be doing my work, but then i just end up stressing way too much basically, this must be fixed.

I Just Don't Like Most PeopleWell this is quite true...in fact i can't stand a lot of people, however i don't think that means i have to be rude or ignore them completly, being nice to someone you hate isn't being FAKE it's called COMMON-fucking-COURTESY

this is all i really have the energy for at the moment,
i wish you all a lovely day.♥

back, back, back it up...

2005-05-17T06:03:29Z

ok, so i'm trying to stay awake...

so i'm listening to rap?

oh christ.

pretty much hate how i procrastinate...

no sleep.

rockstar is not helping...

full day of school tomorrow for the first time in one week?

all right

i love petrie more than words could ever say,

and if he knows what's good for him, he understands that...

♥

Rawr.

2005-05-15T08:19:27Z

so yeah...

this weekend has been ok,

some setbacks however i spent a lot of time with my love,

and that's all that really matters yeah?

Pretty much,

I'm a "verocious" lime green t-rex.

watch out for me...

my name is T.B.A at the moment,

but suggestions are always welcome

♥

another correction.

2005-05-12T05:02:44Z

things are ok now.

i'm happy.

hecka smilin'.

this is the way things are supposed to be...

Today equals:

2005-05-05T22:09:28Z

the worst.

pretty much the world needs to stay the fuck out of my way...

because i just might die if one more person is:

a)rude to me.
b)mean to me.
c)messes something i worked really hard for up.

yeah.

There's a hole in the trust thataway...

2005-05-05T14:00:46Z

*sigh*

another night with close to no sleep...

and somehow,

i'm supposed to be ok?

i don't know what's going on,

i really wish it could be explained in a rational way.

because i don't know what the fuck's going on.

please

break my heart somemore.

Ugh.

2005-05-04T14:07:59Z

I pretty much am tired of fighting with people.

It takes way too much energy,

And it pretty much makes me feel like crap...

yeah,

pretty much i don't feel well.

gettin old.

2005-05-01T23:52:41Z

my back and neck are killing me.

bleh.

pretty much i miss my love...

♥

you make me feel so pretty...

2005-04-30T16:25:43Z

my love means the world to me...

♥

Love's just another four letter word now...

2005-04-27T23:21:44Z

ugh.

god goddamnit.

i hate this.

i hate everything.

everyone i thought was different,

everyone i thought i could trust.

it all means nothing now apparently.

you have fun being upset with me,

and you have fun telling people shit i never said.

i hope you have a good life,

because you are nothing,

you are worth nothing,

but i'm not going to lie...

i'm not quite over it.

< /3

p.s the you in italics is different than the you in bold. thank you, and have a nice day...

Blech.

2005-04-25T03:48:41Z

So...

i'm bored...

so bored i think i might be going temporarily insane.

this is lame...

lame
lame
lame.

i miss my love, my firefly, and freedom.

pretty much...

i think people need to start calling me or something...

this is getting pathetic...

i haven't spoken to anyone on the phone all day.

love you guys too.

...< /3

you gotta get away from me...

2005-04-24T01:00:18Z

Comment here with your name and I'll tell you something I adore (or at least mildly like) about you. Afterwards, copy and paste this into your own journal.

♥

Viva-Volcom...wait. whaaa?

2005-04-23T23:28:22Z

uhm.

yeah.

my mom bought me a cute volcom sweater...

it kinda makes me look plump though... =/

anywho...

just got outta the shower.

bored outside my mind.

can't stop thinking about him.

of course.

and i'm listening to Bloc Party...

me encanta

yes...

so i'm grounded as you all should know...

so being bored will just have to do.

i want a rockstar.

and a cigarette.

leave them at the gate on the side of my house,

and i'll love you foreber

the things rather left unseen...

2005-04-20T22:07:45Z

i have this tendency to ntice the worst in situations...

and it's going to stop now.

i like being happy,

and i want to stay happy...

so pretty much thanks to anyone who brings even a slight bit of joy to my life,

because you are the ones that truly matter.

i'm sorry i'm not the funniest person,

or even the most social person,

but the moments when i actually open up and let my guard down stick with me...

so hopefully you're one of the people who've seen that side of me...

and if not.

someday...

maybe someday.

♥

Woooo

2005-04-18T20:42:41Z

good weekend...

kind of.

well it was awesome,

until today...

pretty much,

i've become a pathological liar when it comes to my whereabouts...

and let's just say,

my mom's a quick one...

grounded for a month...

but at least i went out with a bang...

and i didn't get beaten...

lol.

that's always a plus.

good stuff. ♥

I hold sunlight and swallow fireflies...

2005-04-12T04:50:07Z

hmmm...
today was interesting in a very boring kind of way...

my sister confessed that she's the one who steals my cigarettes...

yes...

which means all this time i thought i was hiding it from her, i wasn't.

nice

and a few other things happened...

nothing important enough to state really...

i'm losing my mind...

and i have the worst case of the hiccups i've ever had in my life.

my firefly is staying with me tomorrow hopefully, and possibly longer.

i love my firefly, and i'd do anything for her...

so yes...

that's about it,

i hope everyone had a fabulous monday,
i'm going to go stand on my head and drink some water :x

i don't really know if that works...

but it's worth a shot right?

♥